I was reading Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood the other day and came across a reference to "liminal moments". According to Wikipedia, "liminality" is defined as "a psychological, neurological, or metaphysical subjective state, conscious or unconscious, of being on the "threshold" of or between two different existential planes". It occurred to me, after I looked up the definition, that lately I seem to be living my life in a perpetual state of liminality these days.
I seem, especially for the last few days, to be sliding gradually between to worlds, and I don't seem to have a lot of control over which I remain in. In one, everything is fine, I am in the process of going back to school to finally make something of myself, feel emotionally stable, and am satisfactorily happy. In the other, I am barely clinging to reality, and can barely trust myself minute to minute as far as perception goes.
Yesterday, as I lay in bed, between sleep and waking, I found myself wondering which was the truly normal state of being. Is it possible that these waking moments, these bits and pieces of "reality" are truly the dream? I know it is a question that has been asked before but these days, for me, the lines are so blurred I'm not even sure half the time whether I am awake or asleep.
Thus this blog. Hopefully I can get a better understanding if I write it all down and maybe even get some feedback from others.
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